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18th May - Still hurts
@ Sunday, May 18, 2008 3:06:00 PM
Last nite i cant slp..kept playin uno till duno wat time..felt so silly..i went ti see our photos n i cried..at least after dat i am able to slp..okie..it'll be the last time..i still lurv him..sometimes i was thinkin if i were to keep quiet abt wat he'd done, juz pretend dat nothin happened, would things remains the same?
He asked me if i regret knowin him, i said no..duno..well, he said i am nt a gd gf..mayb ba..actually i din regret dat i agreed to patch back wif him 3yrs ago..even if time were to turn back, i will still agree..it's nt being stubborn..i juz feel so..i dun feel like clearin away his stuffs at my hse..esp my damn bed..so many things..even if i throw away everythin, it wont makes me feel better..
Okie nvm..things will be better soon..at least tis time i am different..he asked me to forget everythin, forgive him again n we will be the same..i din listen to him for once..even told him he'll be happier without me n i stupidly wish him all the best and even thkz him for lurvin me..haha..i think i am a bit gone case..
Okie later i'm going to thai express again..a place dat he used to go wif me quite often last time..he cant eat spicy things but still go drink tom yum soup wif me..well, at least dat shows he did luv me before..i'm tryin to be optimistic..it's better to believe he luv me before.. =)
I used to look forward to ph n off days..now i've got so many till i duno wat to do..next week is even worse..26th till 29th i am off..i cant cancel it..becuz i still hab 21days of leave n 8.5days of off day..who wana keep me company? *sigh*
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