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19th May - Feelin cheated..
@ Monday, May 19, 2008 1:12:00 PM
Ytd i think ppl will think zen n me r the ppl wif alot of time n nothin better to do..y? we took 960 from wdl to marina square, for abt 1hr++, juz to go thai express n buy cake from secret recipe.. *haha* after dat, we took 960 back again n i reached hm at abt 1230am.. =b
When i am bored, i always tend to do things dat i normally wnt do.. =)
Okie..i've decided le..nt to luv him or any other guys..juz use my time now to work even harder, earn more n next yr i can study le..i think i shld continue to study ba..a diploma will lead me to nowhere.. *sigh* i am nt those ambitious kinda person but i juz dun wish to be stuck in the bank forever..in the 1st place, it's nt wat i wanted..
So i shld stop livin in the past n look forward to the future? *haha* tis kinda thing is nt i said one ok..is someone told me dat..actually he wan me to post an entry to scold alex but i feel dat, since u wan me to move on, i shld nt post an entry abt him le rite? shld juz forget..mayb few yrs down the road, when i see him again, i still can smile at him..anyway, i am nt angry le..so, juz let go ba..
Actually family is the most impt part in ur life ok..i used to treat alex as the most impt part of my life n neglected my own family..but now, i made them so worried until if i nv reach hm, or if i dun go to slp, my mum will nv get to slp properly..i'm sry..i think in my life i'd said too many sry, esp to him..until my sry seems to be nothin..but i am reali sry..whenever she saw me wif dat swollen eyes in the mornin, i think she even more sad than me..think onli richard will believe dat it's becuz i nv slp well so my eyes r swollen.. *haha* so i think i'd enuff of cryin as well..
I wont be like last time..upset for almost 1yr, cry till i feel so hard to breathe, etc..enuff le ba..so, i juz wan a new life..i hope he will be happier without me..up to now, he's still the onli one in my heart..actually i nv hate him..i juz said dat out of anger..how to hate him when i luv him so much..to hate a person is bery tirin oso..so be neutral ba.. =)
I juz wan a simple life..the day i throw away the rings, i am able to start to luv another person..i hope so..i've got to be more independent becuz he always dun like me to be so dependent on him..everythin i've got to learn to nt depend on him le..
Okie study ftt now..totally no mood..
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