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half an hr more to 18th may
@ Saturday, May 17, 2008 11:32:00 PM
I think he went drinkin..think he blamed it on me..tdy is the most painful day to me, nt sure abt him..rite now, he's habin all the freedom in the world..he can go anywhere he wan, wif anyone dat he wana be wif..
Tis mornin, on my way to work, i was thinkin if he'll call me..but he nv..it still hurts me alot..i duno y? i admit i hab alot of expectations of him..i did said alot of harsh things dat i shld nt hab said to him, alot of times..but, i din meant to hurt him..i juz hope he'll wake up..in the end, it's me who's still dreamin..
I told him i oready throw away the rings..but i nv..everytime i reali wana throw it away, in the end, i still keep it in my bag..no matter how he treat me, i still forgave him..i tot he'll change..he dumped me in the middle of the nite, 1am, all alone at eunos n he went home, i forgave him..he scolded me so loudly in front of his fren, i forgave him..he forgot my bday, forgot everythin abt me, i forgave him..but tis one, it's oready the 3rd time..how am i supposed to forgive him??
Zhen said i am makin life difficult for myself..i know..but i reali dun wana hab time to remember anythin..i let myself work till so tired so dat once i lie down on the bed, i can juz fall aslp..i dun wish to do tis to myself but i reali cant slp..if u were me, wat will u do?
Life goes on..juz dat mine reali sux..
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