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Life goes on..
@ Sunday, August 17, 2008 8:20:00 PM
U know..wat guys meant to me? no offence..but all r jerks to me..
Guys..dey say dey lurv u alot..dey cant live without u..even for one min..after dey gt tired of u..dey dun protect u anymore..or mayb dey din protect u before..so dey started hurtin u..den dey say dey feel sry for hurtin u..make u believe dey still lurv u, believe u still meant alot alot to him..so u started to lurv him so damn deeply again..but guys, dey forever can nv be satisfied..their heart will wander again..and once again, yes, dey managed to hurt u again..dey juz like to see u, hurt n upset..
u deprive happiness from my misery..
Quan ge n gor, i'm sry if u read tis..
actually i've been tryin to be normal..he doesn't even feels anythin when i finally decided to leave him..y muz i make myself so miserable? i've been tellin ppl, treat me as a normal person..dat day *arhem* asked me to think abt y i dun wana leave him..i din ans him but he guessed it all correctly..haha..
Guess i needa focus on other things rite? he's rite..i lost him equals to i lost my support..he's been the one dat i've been depending on for the past few yrs..so i gotta be independent..will nv believe there's any other guys dat i can depends on..it's always better to depend on urself becuz u'll nv hurt urself..
1st of all, get a job..ya, i can start lookin for one oready since i've oready rest for 2weeks le..but i'd quality rest..spent time wif ppl i luv..tdy jermaine told me she luv me..haha..although it's becuz i always bring her out, buy things for her, let her play my ds lite, etc, i know she din lie..kids dun lie..at least when she says she lurv me, it's from her heart..u get me?
Tml onwards, start everythin fresh!! i shld get a life..quit slpin late, quit skippin meals, quit feelin sad for myself, quit wakin up late, etc etc..to stop lurvin a guy dat u've lurv so deeply for so many yrs is like askin a smoker to quit smokin after he has been smokin for so many yrs..i like comparing things tis way..lolz..it's easier to let ppl get the idea..am i rite?
Learn to appreciate n luv myself 1st before i want someone else to lurv me rite? i got it.. =D
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Ev3LyN,